What do you think is the secret to life?
I always stop to wonder of life and the essence of it, in and of things. It all has magic in it, it all breathes whispers into my soul. Never fails. Ever. Here I stop again, different as I am at this time and stage of my own life & existence. I stop and observe, for weeks, for months, for a couple of years. Many of those who have accompanied me this far have been changing through events and situations, and so have I, of course. And since we change, evolve or regress that is, in accordance with our close circle of friends, there comes a time, unfortunately, where one of life’s biggest mysteries, or at least to me, reveals itself. I look around to find some of those one’s ghosts lingering around me, although they themselves don’t appear to be there anymore. And through the ghostly remnants, I find myself still holding on to one person or another, feeding energy to our connection, my will of keeping them, and loving them, and nurturing the friendship, or whatever is left of it, does not want to break. It had started, the process decomposing since one, two or more things happened, depending on each event and situation. In some case it is theft, creative & artistic theft, in another it is drainage of energy, and in some cases, it is merely fear & weakness, selfishness, or low vibrational emotions and illusive feelings. Whatever the cause, those who have undergone it, have become ethereal, waiting for me, or someone, to blow them away, away to the wind! While other presences were forming, in my circle of souls, some new, some self-upgraded from old, making everything peaceful, light, and home-like. Even though I struggled, somewhere, somehow to keep those I was clinging to in place, even tried to take it higher, further, until I realized that some things need to be LET GO OF.
Not just for me, but for all of us. To clear any possible misunderstanding, this doesn’t mean giving up on the ones you love and the ones who are counting on you, not at all. It simply means that some people have had their fill of kindness –yours? and innocence, and when we see the extent at which they are or perhaps even got corrupted, and despite all the love in the world that we hold for them, decay happens. Decay can happen in many shapes and forms, but when it happens, it is useless to try and delay the process, the best one can do is let it happen, make peace, pay respect, and let it be. When natures grow apart, when people set their differences, doesn’t mean one is right and one is wrong –I am only saying this to remind myself of it- it doesn’t have to be ugly or pretty –Still reminding myself of it- when people cannot debate without a fight, or cannot connect without ‘borrowing’ energies from others, of course without permission, things tend to get unhealthy, with or without the awareness of the being. Automatically this creates an imbalance, perceived by an intelligent aware being, or not perceived by the self-absorbed entity. This imbalance will fall into a breakage in the bond, despite the lingering energies, which at turn will be released or retrieved.
There are people –like me- who honor human relations, from family to friendship, to couple, to animals, nature, every single living being. Or maybe it is because I am a Libran. We give, we love giving, and when we receive we love receiving. We give with no expectancy of a return or anything of the sort. Yet when we encounter the ones brutally unaware, ungrateful, unkind, untrue, and unjust –I’m not being judgmental, I hope not, some things are too out there for one not to see them! It brings out the fire in us, the one ignited by what’s unclear, what’s unclean, with no god or man given right to be, and since it is in our nature to either defeat what insults our intelligence, defeat it ideally, with all the peace & the love, & the radical self-love and respect, or to burn it forever. I won’t go for the burning, although I was very tempted. I came to believe that the burning should only be for healing, and not for destruction, if you know what I mean. There’s the healing fire, the purple flame, the one that nourishes love, acceptance, peace, forgiveness, grace, or the injuring fires, the one that feeds on ugliness, betrayals, anger & hatred, and all that comes with it of emotions & feelings. If my lesson is to let it be, the decay, the endings, the all that comes with it, they cannot be of me since I know what I am made of, and I will choose not to let them. If my lesson is to let it be, then it’s time to apply the lesson, and may Angels guide me through it, and may it be a most peaceful and loving process.
I will choose today to let go of some people, some situations, all the while striving to remain in the discipline of faith in the divine, patience, forgiveness, and higher love.
So, did you figure out the secret to life, or that of death for that matter? I haven’t. Please tell me your story if you have come close to the mysteries. In the meantime, my body parts will keep filling their tasks, and I, will be grateful for every sunrise, every moonrise, without regrets, shame or remorse, but with peace, love & understanding, looking forward to new adventures, new discoveries, lessons, and connections.